Wanted to separate and post things at surprise times over the last 24 hrs and got fkn enveloped in shirttttsssss ahhhh ๐ here's sum pix I took today hehhe lots of bewbies and artsy ones I edited on mah phoneeee ๐ Oh and posted all the shyt I've been working on over the last 48 hrszz!! ๐ I haven't been able to sleep lolll just disassociated the f out and I wanna go live and paint em they just take like 10x longer than making a painting live ๐
I will get back to the rest of your gaizz messages when I wake up tooo! of cyber hugs ๐โค๏ธโ๐ฉนโค๏ธโ๐ฉนโค๏ธโ๐ฉน I wanted to post somethin at least before I tried to sleep heh have a banging fuckin Sunday ๐
Okay Let me drop ๐ถ๐ฆ stuff I've taken that's not safe for IGwhile i make several posts bout where tf ive been โค๏ธโ๐ฉนโค๏ธโ๐ฉนโค๏ธโ๐ฉน I feel so incredibly terrible for basically ghosting my platform here ๐ข ๐ญ and everyone here. consistency with this jerb and chronic pain are like two mfers battling in the colluseum ๐๐ชฆโฐ๏ธ hard to feel good about yourself enough to make content/talk about the positives if too many negatives are happening so I just don't wanna word v0mit and then end up saying nothing at alllmao ๐ซ ๐ญ so if you're still here I fucking can't thank you enough for supporting me thru this even if you didn't mean to and like had your sub on auto lmao ๐ฅน I have SO much to reply to on here, and don't want anyone to think I've been specifically ignoring their messages. And holy shit to tha peeps that tipped, I HEART YOU AHH ๐ I'll be sending you an extra folder or two...or three. ๐
The longer I creep into my lil cave of antisocial, the harder it gets to gtfo of it, everyday I wanted to post here but my brain was like HelllNO ๐ ๐ today I fuckin snapped lol ๐ I really enjoy posting and talking to you gaiz on here and seem to self sabotage that shit..I need to stop that โ๏ธโ๏ธ
Nekked ๐ and an amusing pic of what my back looks like daily LOL Salonpas patches are fucking miracles ๐พ
OKAY READY???? This is long long and whoever reads thru this I give you 138383 kisses ๐ I owe an explanation as to why I went MIA. Im so sorry about that ๐ญ spending alot of my morning replying to messages here ๐ฉต๐ฉต
Im back tho and I think? Consistency will be possible nowwwwww. ๐ซจ๐ซจ I have so much to update everyone on, but it'll come out In bits and pieces hahaha ๐ต๐ญ๐ญ last month was Def the hardest mentally bc of my physical state. The break up didn't help either lmao but literally yayyyy the month I came back on here to post again (november) is when my chronic pancreatitis creeped back into my life after 2 yrs of it bein dormant. I didn't know it could even affect me anymore after I stopped drinking. But i was wrong lmfao. I'm waiting to get approved for a celiac block in my backkkkk I'm nervous ๐ฌ but it could possibly help w the pain. BUT I saved the best newssssssss!
Well it's not rly amazing bc its kinda a bandaid but I got prescribed Creon. Which is like a godsend for pancreatitis and I didn't notice it rly helping until a few days ago finally I was like HOLY SHITTTTT. My pain has been under control for like 3 days straight now and that's a miracle ๐
For the peeps who have known me for awhile, i still have to get a bilateral jaw joint replacement LOL but I can only do one thing at a time rn it's rly overwhelming ๐ญ
On the 12th i have surgery to remove the stents in my pancreas and I'm terrified bc I can get a flare up from the surgery and might have to stay in the hospital after. But I will keep everyone updated i PROMISE. I don't wanna ghost the fuck out again..after like a week of not posting I get SO nervous and freeze up and can't post Loool ๐ ๐ต๐ตโ๐ซ
I have so much to owe you guys, peeps still here..I don't even know what to sayyy I love your fucking guts so much ๐ญ๐ญ
๐ฅน๐ฅฐ Before I say my huge asss update I am pressing the post button with my eyes closed bc I have an irrational anxiety when I don't post for a long time LOL ๐
First time I got to put makeup on and feel gooooooood! So here's some pix ๐ฅฐ๐ฅฐ๐ฅฐ
Feeling better mentally everyday. I didn't know how badly being ignored by the person who is supposed to care the most about you would affect me so deeply in other areas of my life, but it was like a light switch turned om after leaving him. I can't wait to go live again. I'll basically be restarting my art life again with everyone on IG. And I wanna do nude painting seshshshsss on here bc that would b fun hehe
TADAAA! You guys see my first everrrrrr tshirt i hand paintedddd! It took way longer than necessary but it was sooo relaxing to make ๐
AND Holy fuck THE LIP RING HATH BEEN OPENN
I feel so much better now ๐ showing my peeps here first a Lil timeline pic i clipped together of the stages ๐ซ ๐ซ ๐ซ I STILL GOT TO KEEP MY HOLEEE!!! Just downsized from a 10g to a 12g.
Accidental self modification ayeeee, I think it looks cute as fuck ๐๐ but it prob won't last long considering lip and mouth wounds heal so quick
The piercer had to use TWO piercing pliers and had to get underneath the ring with both of them, and then had to TWIST IT in opposite directions ๐ซจ even after the pain and swelling went away it legit felt like my lip was being ripped off for five seconds ๐คฃ
I'll make a good vid when I put makeups on ๐
My eyes get soooo poofy when I cry to where they get hard to keep open hahahah, I have some salty ass tears and they seem saltier when I'm hurt ๐คฃ last night was the LAST time I'm letting that man make me cry ๐ I got confirmation that I was basically tricked into being with him so he wouldn't be lonely..so I'm finding a therapist tmrw bc I need to fogure out how to stop attracting these kinds of people.
I can't thank everyone enough who worded some rly nice shit on my last post, and the unexpected tips that I appreciate somuch ๐ฅน๐ฅฐ๐ฅฐ i got back to everyone's messages, so pls send me one if I happened to miss yours โค๏ธโ๐ฉนโค๏ธโ๐ฅโค๏ธโ๐ฉน
Making my vid this week for all the peeps who tipped $20 before life fucked my face LOL ๐ป๐ป What should the next goal be? I was thinking of going to a dope place in the woods and takin n00dz ๐๐
Oh snap it me ๐ฅธ HOLY HELL I need some hype from you guys...anyone that reads this pls tell me U CAN DO ITTttTtTtT!!!!
I was hit with overwhelming feels of stage fright for the past week or. I just kinda froze up and same goes with talking to peeps as well. It's a weird feel that has prevented me from going live on IG and shit. I don't talk about my relationship online (learned from that shit lol unless you fuck me over then b prepared ๐คฃ)
But i had to break things off w my partner a few days ago..to hella summarize eithout saying shit, my self esteem&confidence rly got affected this time around. Im getting rly exhausted of being tricked into a relationship to have them turn a 180 as soon as they gey comfy. It's been months of not feeling heard or payed attention to, like you're the last priority on their list, never feeling like they he even interested in me...don't think I ever got one compliment after a month. ๐ซฃ๐ถ I know that's stupid but cmon dude it's my bf and of course I expect him to show in some way that he's into me ๐
But yeah my self worth is like thru the floor so it's gonna take time to rebuild again, but updates daily again on here and opening up will help ๐ฅน I WANT TO HUG AND KISSSSSS EVERYONE STILL HEREEEE ๐๐๐๐
I'm finally getting this out of my lip today too (took so long bc it needed to heal before closing the piercing holee)) and that'll Def help with some confidence back haha
ARE YOU GAIZ RDY FOR THIS RIDIC ASS FUCKIN STORY ๐ซ ๐ซ ๐ซ ๐ซ ๐ซ I spared you guys the video bc it might get me deleted on here ๐ I'll post it up on x lolzl
After i post this, ill be replying to everyones messagessss! Pls forgive me for the late reply โค๏ธโ๐ฉน You have no idea how much it means to me the peeps that are still hereeeee!!!! And everyone that tipped for the video, I STILL MAKING ITT!!!!! As soon as i can put a dick in my mouth again ๐คฃ
I am currently still sittin here with this fucking thing in bc the antibiotics helped alot and I feel like imma have a permanent dent in my lip now. So pls like me still ๐๐๐ ๐.. okay TLDR::::::
My piercing of nine years blew up overnight without me being able to snap the ring off in time Lmfaoooooo
SooOoOoOO...long story long
Right when my eye got better, i woke up to my lip legit SWOL as fuck. No reason at fuckin all..I got antibiotics like 3 days ago but it's not infected....legit I had the circulation cut off for so long that it mutha fuckin SLICED INTO MY LIP. Right through it...
Of course I would have taken the ring out right fkn away...but the problem with these rings is that I can't take them off...LOL theyre seamless rings, and I needed forceps/pressure/space underneath the ring to be able to get them off.
So I had no time to get it off before it went from like 0 to 10000 swollen ๐ซฃ I went to my PCP and got antibiotics, bc fuck the situation at the ER that would happen๐ i think now i actually have to go now and might need stitches ๐ค
Imagine like a rubber band soooooo tight around your finger...for days in the same spot no circulation ๐ฌ๐ฌ๐ฌ๐ฌ๐ฌ
I thought it wouldn't get this insane bc shits never happened nor have I EVER seen this happening to someone that has piercings. but yeah lesson to make sure your fkn jewelry is loose enough for some FREAK ASS SHIT to possibly happen like this because oh my fucking God it took over my last TWO WEEEEEKS and I feel so bad for ditching you gaiz here ๐ค I'll keep you updated from now on tho, I just been so confused on what the fuckkkk to do and the feeling of no circulation and just slowly slicing has been so distracting ๐ซฅ I have pain 24/7 and felt some horrible feels but this has been SOMETHIN ELSE.
I'm gonna have a Fight Club lookin ass lip if they have to stitch it up โ ๏ธโ ๏ธ
WOW. I'm sharing a gnarly story with you gais Oh man lol butFIRST, heres some new drippp๐ฆ ๐ซ These will be listed in my shop MoNDAYYyyy!!!!! At Noon EST ๐
My fuckjng face attacked me ALL MONTH last month and I feel so shifty for promising content I couldn't deliverr in time ๐ซฃ๐ BUT I know who has tipped for it and I gotchu as soon as I'm better physicallyโค๏ธโ๐ฅโค๏ธโ๐ฅ
Thank youuuuuuuuu for still being here ๐ like fack. Not even a couple weeks after coming back to OF, My life totally changed when I had the first ER visit In december ๐ I Didn't know the next few months would be so insanely unpredictable and i think thats like my new baseline I have to get used to lmao ๐ถ thx for baring with me right now cuz it fuckin means so much โค๏ธโ๐ฅ
POSTING CRAZIE POST when I wake up so I can monitor it in case OF wants to play the delete game ๐๐ and pm replies ๐ฅฐ
Omg hai haii ๐ซฃ๐ซฃ What Evennnn has this month been omg ๐ฒ ๐ญ I'm so sorry for me bein a ghost, my body hasn't seemed to be able to catch a break for weeks. As soon as my eye got better my lip randomly swelled up so bad that my smaller lip ring was like cutting the circulation off my lip and it's still trying to heal, so I haven't been able to put makeup on in weeeeeeks ๐ค (see the last pic hahah)
I tried replying to everyone so if i missed you just msg me ๐ฅฐ Pls forgive me for the late reply โค๏ธโ๐ฉน You have no idea how much it means to me the peeps that are still hereeeee!!!! Everyone stilk here will be getting content as soon as I can make it. And everyone that tipped for the video, I STILL MAKING ITT!!!!! my lip will be better prob in a couple days but I got new contact lenses I can't wait to show you gaiz ๐
The random swelling on my faceee and stomach cramps made me super distracted mentally I couldn't get shit done BUT I UNLOCKED A NEW PASSIONNNN!!!! stencil making ๐๐๐ I'll show you guys next post!
Oh my goodness the last three days have been spent hiding my faceeeeee ๐ซฃ๐ซฃ I shouldn't tell you to swipe but totally swipe, I'm straight FLIPPIN my eye IS INSANE ๐ณ๐ณ๐ณthe past 3 days its progressively been getting worse and my doctors office wouldn't call me back so I've been using eye drops but holy fucking shit I'm so miserable atm lol pls forgive me for the gross photos ๐๐๐๐
But it's so wild I look like I got stung by a bee ๐ I cried alot lately with makeup on and it totally rubbed off in my eyes so I think that's the culprit for this ๐ญ๐ญ Gonna go to urgent care tmrw if it's open (everything up here closes at the most fucky times/days lmao ๐คฃ) and get antibioticsssss.
It's currently 6am and I've been typing this for hours cuz I kept having to take breaks from my looking at my phone ๐๐๐ญ
I got a couple new fits though I am gonna show you guys tmrw ๐๐๐ er...today lmao
I hope everyone is having sweet dreams and a fuckin SUNDAY FUNDAYลธ!!! I'll keep you guys updated on shit โค๏ธโ๐ฉนโค๏ธโ๐ฉน
Holy tittieessssss!!!!! I had no idea this was hiding in one of my content folders, and it totally deserves its own post :P back in 2019 when I worked with Inside Flesh! They have inSANE technology and scanners and 3d printers, and scanned my whole bodyyy! :O hehe I have quite a few projects with them if youre curious ;P
ALSOOOOOO! Thank you SO much\, peeps who tipped $20 for the vday vid ahhhh :') See my next post, i have lots of updatessss! :D Sending a content folder to everyone who has subbed over the past 48 hrs <3
Happy Valentines ๐๐ ALL OF YOU WILL BE MINE THIS YEAR ๐คฃ๐๐๐ I'm currently waiting in the surgeons office to follow up oh if I have gained weight/next steps. It's not the first place I would pick to go on this day but whatever lmao
Pls pls pms send good vibes ๐ค๐ค this is the doc that went straight to pancreas removal without other less extreme options given so I had a panic attack before I left ๐ตโ๐ซ๐ฅบ
I Def need a smile and some snugglesโค๏ธโ๐ฉน I know the latter can't happen, so if you tip $20 on this goal, youll get an extra hawt vid sent to you at the end of the month & this month's folder of all content made ๐ only 20 peeps can get in on it! filming this weekend and will show some behind the scenes stuff ๐โค๏ธโ๐ฅโค๏ธโ๐ฅโค๏ธโ๐ฅโค๏ธโ๐ฅ
ALL NEW SUBSSSS!!!! Hai Hai Hai ๐ I will be sending you a content folder when I get home from the docs ๐๐ฅฐ๐
Oh man hey hey heyyyyyy my Killaz ๐I'm BaaaaaacKKKkKk!!!!!! ๐
Theres lots of stuff I haven't posted, so imma just spam you guys this week with it alllll! hehe ๐ biiiig ass update below ๐๐๐
Gettin back to messages asap! ๐ I rly rly adore everyone thats still hereee ๐๐ I can't go a few days without losing like 40 of ya bahaha ๐ so check your inbox cuz I sent surprise for bein a badass ๐
๐ฝ I went to a resort and the spa ๐ฅฑ i cant even LOL
Their jacuzzi wasnt workin and i didnt prepare enough to know their massages were all fuckin booked ๐๐๐๐ซ so imma make an APPOINTMENTTTT and go to an actual spa closeeeee to me, not like hotel/spa I don't trust that shit now ๐ my muscles were so ready tooooo lmao ๐คค ๐ชฆ
๐ I HADDDD to show off this lamp in some fashion ๐ก it sparked a new found love in me after stumbling on it for TEN BUXXXXX. Anything Mid Century Modern is my fav and so funnnnn, it's from the 60s and is A TOUCH LAMP ๐ซ
like whatttt. Why don't we make cool shit like this today? We do, but it looks like shit and everything new breaks fast ahhaha I my next find is a couch bc we still don't have one ๐คฃ
This week is going to be sooooo crazyyyyyy! I have an appointment everyday this week. I don't think that's ever happened ๐ Lucifer has to go to the vet tmrw (send good vibesssss. He is showing signs of havin diabeetus ๐๐)
Wednesday I see the GI!! fingers crossed it doesn't refuck my brain LOL this surgeon is a big doomer and only gave me the most extreme option for treatment ๐ซฃ
Thursday is my PCP, and Friday is the DMV to get my car finally registered here woooo!!! ๐
SO MUCH ADULTING I MIGHT DIEEEEE โฐ๏ธ ๐ซ ๐คฃ
BUTTTTTTT I have planned to post everyday again on heree! I'm working rly hard on getting better at not disappearing completely when I go through a pain flare up. ๐ I just went thru one that has been fuckin me up for a couple days and is so distracting, hours and hrs go by I forget I have a phone and a life lmfaooooo so when I say thank you for still bein here, I rly mean it wholeheartedly you gaiz ๐ฅฐ๐ฅฐ๐ฅฐ
IM COOKIN UP AN IDEA FOR VDAY CONTENT!!!!! I've been more mentally in da art zone so maybe something cool w makeup ๐ hehe COMMENT ANY IDEAAASSSS!!!!! crazy or cute whatevers clever ๐
Hella hella throwback ๐๐๐ to years 2011 and 2015 when I got my kittiesssss! These are from my vault folder of Pre Cam Webcam Pics heh ๐ฅฐ
How is everyoneeeee??? I feel like I'm constantly behind on everything so I said fuckkkkkkkkthis and booked a room for tonight and a day pass to the spaaaaa theree!!!!! Idk if I'll be able to relax fully because that's just me brain ๐๐๐ but I Def know my body is gonna be like THANKKUUUUU hahahaa
Thank you guys alot for giving me the chance to even do this, your support means universes to mee ๐ซ๐ and ima take pixxxxx if I can In the spa ๐๐๐
While I'm gone my whole shop is 35% off for you gaiz with code ONLYPEEPZ ๐ ๐ฅฐ
Ive been trying to put on weight and its freaking me out LOL so my body has been a ghost to my camera ๐ apologies for posting throwbacks, but I think this mini break will do positive things and I'll feel refreshedddd ๐โโ๏ธ๐โโ๏ธ
Only one more month until they have to remove the stents holding my pancreas ducts open and I'm super worried ๐ซฃ it's only a matter of time before I have to hospital again once they get removed, so im gonna try to get as much life done before that and document it all here so pls stay cuz IMMA LIFE IT UP ๐ฅฐ๐ฅฐ๐ฅฐ
Oh haiiii ๐ฅฐ๐ฅฐ๐ฅฐ I finally went shopping irl at like a clothing store ๐คฃ๐คฃ ahahah it wasn't planned, I drove like 40mins into buffalo n waited onna driver for w33d and they were taking forever, I was like oh shit I'm right by a mall ๐
The overalls are fuckin badass and I got a textile pen so imma do some cool drawingzzzzz on em ๐
I hope everyone had a good weekend ๐๐ if you grabbed a shirt last drop I can't thank youuuu ENOUGHH ๐ฅฒ I'll make you one if you grab a pack off my wishlist for meee!!! Since I'm forever in need of blank tees ๐
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Grab the size you usually wear! There's XL-4XL and message meeeeee so I can make you a dope tee ๐ฅฐ
I was in the middle of responding to peeps when I had a keel over moment with my stomach that seemed to last like a whole day ๐ซฃ ngl its been a rlu hard few days physically and then mentally bc of it, just sends me into a spiral when I can't do the things I wanna do bc I can't think about anything else when a random flare happens like that theyre so distracting ๐ถ๐ซฅ so im super srry to everyone I'm late to get back tooooo โค๏ธโ๐ฉน I appreciate u all so so much ๐ฅฐ
๐ฅ๐ฅ๐ฅ๐ฅ I hope you guys have a spicy weekend ๐ค I have Aaaaalot To catch up on, first being messages on here! I've been pretty debilitated in pain the past three days from that time of the monthhhhh cramps, and my pancreas produces hormones, so it gets extra irritated every month and I have like a mini flare up ๐
I want to get as much done with my life as I can before I can't do the things I want anymore like travelingggggg. Trying to stay positive, knowing that every month I will be expecting this to happen tho causes me a great deal of mental challenges ๐ถ๐ซฃ
I MADE MY JANUARY CONTENT FOLDER! so much I never got to post here, so tip $10 if you want the link for it ๐ฅฐ๐ฅฐ๐ฅฐ
What's everyone's plans for the weekenddddd!!!!??? Thabk you everyone for bein such mf angelsss and allowing me to have a few days break โค๏ธโ๐ฉนโค๏ธโ๐ฉน
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these lightssssss!!!!!!! its 5am i been up since fkn 1am lol currently dying shirtssss! Replying back to peeps who tipped $10+ on my goal last post!!! Thank you so much ๐ฅฐ๐ฅฐ
*If You dont have my new JackHammer Jesus Vid, tip $15 on my last goal and I'll send the 12 mins of hotness to your inbox โบ๏ธ I feel like there's Def not enough peeps who have seen it mwahah ๐
Eeee!!!!! This took awhile but I finally got my mono/red pieces up in my shop hehe showing you gaiz first hehe
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Scroll for Boobie pix ๐ช๐ป
I've been trying to do as much as I can while my stomach let's me function. ๐ซ It's rly scary just not knowing when im gonna ever have an acute attackk where I'm forceed to go to the hospital. Those thoughts have been rly intrusive this month and it's Def left me a little lost mentally, so this campaign is how much left to reach my goal for the end of the month ๐ all tips will get content of some kind, request anything you'd like as well ๐ฅฐ
Good morning to youuuu ๐ late night wigglin โจ๏ธ
How has everyone's week beeeeeen? Make sure your rebill is on and I'll be sending you a dm tonight ๐ซฃ๐๐
Omg and I have SO many arts to finish and list! I have a couple listed last night hehe and bout to list a set of coasterzzzzz ๐
I had a ton of Size Large Tees I dyed, a 4xl, and some in betweeeeen! I'll post previews of them first! Alot of them are experimenting with different bleach layering ๐ช๐
Hwhe morning mirror comp ๐ Took a buncha cute pix and clips last night ๐ and finished so many art piecesssss! ๐จ
I'll be AFK for alot of the day with the bf helping me install lights and other stuff around the house I can't do bc I'm mentally handicapped when it comes to handyman shit ๐คฃ
People who subbed yesterday if tou didn't get a dm from me with a folder yet pls msg meeeee!!!!! ๐ฅฐ๐ฅฐ๐ฅฐ๐ฅฐ
Sunday Funday ๐ hot throwback clips ๐ฅต from a folder I totally forgot to list on my Content Menuuu!!!! It's prob my fav one too lol ๐ it's a compilation of HuNDreDSs of clips since 2014ish of hawt edited clipz, snapchat cum shows, and random weirdness ๐ชฑ๐ชผ
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ANDD Im always adding to it! So if you have this folder you'll get all the updatess!! ๐
๐ชซSince all content is still half off for the 24 hours, Tip $50 on dis post for the whole folderr!!!๐ฉธ my last goal was completed and holy shit THANK YOUU!!! ๐ I ordered some warm simple ass clothes bc holy fuck it's cold ๐ and finding a good place for a massage when the snow let's up a little. ๐ฅฒ
(The few that have this folder, it's called "CAM LYFE")
Colorsss n close ups to make yer Monday not so borriiinggggg ๐ฅฐ
I haven't been to sleeeeeep in lil over 24 hrs now, insomnia hasn't gotten better and I'm eventually gonna mf breakkk down so hard LOL I rly hope I can go to this party tmrw night here. It has some decent musikkkk, buffalo sucks DICKKKKKK here with any kind of underground scene of music of any kind its rly rly sad I want to cry sometimes ๐ซ ๐ซ ๐ซ ๐ซ ๐๐ญ๐ญ๐ญ๐ญ
I spent way 2 much time helping the bf trim his mf w33d lmfao like 13 hrs over the last 3 days and it's crazy how much he has left still, I finally PAINTED AGAINNNNN and NAILED IT! and my pain has been easier to deal with mainly bc I haven't slept I think too ๐ but I musttttt
Gonna try to nap wish me luck ๐ด ๐ฌโ ๏ธ๐ฅฑ i got a ton of peeps to dm back so once my brain like does a reset, i shall reply to erryonee ๐ฅฐ๐ฅฐ i appreciate you mofuckas so much ๐๐คAND pls msg me if you haven't gotten content yet that you tipped for! I try to remember every1but messages get so unorganized on here , so pls forgive me if I've missed youuuuu and dm me so i can send ya the stufffffff heh๐๐ฅน๐งก thank youuuu if you read my last post and sent any sweet reply of good vibes. I FELL EM ๐ค
If the goal a couple posts down gets completed that would be fuckin so sick ๐ค if you tip today for my newest vid, I'll send ya another ๐ of contentttt that you dont have ๐
After taking a weeeeeek to type up this Book of an update, OF decides to restrict me with a banned word and Im NOT about to go through the aprox 1727 words to figure out their lvl of irrationality with that shit LOL
SO I dumped it all into a ggoooooogle Doc and made it pretty :P and will be sharing long winded updates like that with everyone from now on! So u can choose to read them or not :P keep it short and simple with posts here :) but if u do takee the time and end up reading all of dis I truly cant thank u enough. :'>
https://docs.google.com/document/d/1AaBAtfLM08TGiMqOLega2cS3O4lDUjzQbhSpLJHZ4g4/edit?usp=sharing
What should i do with these barbed wire hearts??? :') Felt it complimented my update nicely hah :P I hope everyone is having an amazing weekend! EVERYONE who has also purchased my newww vidyaaa, i have lots of replies to makeee! Tip $18.88 on my laast post for the 12min vid+photoz sent to yo dmssss :D <3
YAY what you guys have been waiting forrrrr!!!!
I promise my absence the past couple days has been worth it hehe heres some cut clips compiled...I totally just edited and rendered the most fappable, highest quality vid ive ever made :P But you can be the judge of thattt ;)
Peeps who tipped $16.66 early for the XMAS Folder with jeezus/high res photoset, GO LOOK INNIT! You have a surprise added :D
res quality is so fuckin good on phones now ahah I had to take advantage of it ;) ANDDD Its actually over 10mins long, i didnt do ANY of my schitzo editing lmao
TIP $18.88 on this goal for the full 12 min vid & photoset! Sent in a dm ASAP :D I legit got horny editing this eehheh oop >___<
Campaign is totally going towards a night somewhere i can get a massage/sit in a hot tub for eternityyyy, it sounds like mf heavennnnnn
xoxo
Hehe couple clips from yesterday โบ๏ธ๐ I've been holy fuck exhausted on so many crazy levels and everything has been almost like dragging my body wit 10 sledgehammers attached to my bodyyyy ๐ ๐ specifically my neck tho like I wish my head was weightless ๐ถโ๐ซ๏ธ๐ I feel 100000% better since the last er bullshittttt, and HOLY FUCK my body is weird as hellllll. So after 20 gazillion times in the er they never once told me until now that I have TWO pancreas ducts ๐ ๐ ๐ ๐ Wut
So I had helllaaaaaaa fkn calcified stones and alotnof fluid built up that couldn't get out bc my ductzzzz were suuuuper smalllll. So I now have three stents in ๐คฃ but I guess I forever have an inflamed pancreas. And the scariest part is I think it's gonna happen everytime before I get my period (sorry TMI, the last 4 months, i had a flare up beforehand, and the pancreas produces hormones so if it couldn't flow thru my body right I get all fucked up) I'm fuckin terrifieddddddddd it'll happen again and there's no way to rly stop it
But everyone thats been here this whole few stupid weeks sending loves and support ๐ I rly rly hope I didn't forget to send anything to peeps so pls msg me if I accidentally did forget ๐ญ๐ญ๐๐๐
I'm trying to take it easy but it's so hard bc I got resin in the mail abd some wood I ordered for an Xmas pressie to myself LOL sweet mdf wood ๐๐ so many new projects finished and ones I had goin that are WIPS I've been meaning to post here ๐คฉ๐ปโค๏ธโ๐ฉนโค๏ธโ๐ฉน
How Hass you guys beeeeeeen? I love catching up ๐ฉถ๐ค
Ihih see my last post for a new folder ๐ I hath made with tons if unseen stuff ๐ฅฐ
OOooOOOo I got a surpriseeee ๐ฅฐ๐ซ Here's some pix from a NEW CONTENT FOLDERRR! ๐๐
I legit was going to upload like 80% of the pix/clips in this folder that ive taken since returning here in November, its been a roller coaster of a couple months hahah
SoOOOOO I put em all in one folder for a โค๏ธ$16.66โค๏ธ Tip!! :D (check your inbox for the folder hehee)
THERE'S 400+ FILEZZZZ (clips&pix) in this two month folder, and counting bc i found a ton i need to add rn lol ๐
๐งจPeeps who have the whole OF ARCHIVE Vault will have access to this folder already so go lookie at that new new ๐๐
Detailzzz of entire 3,000 + OF Archive are hereee!!! ($150 tip)
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ALSO am still editing and sending my Jeeeezus vid for every1 who tipped for that ๐ฅฐ๐ฅฐ hospital kinda fucked that up for a second hahaha ๐
Wowwwww. Ive been home for lil over 24 hrs and am still pretty fucked up ๐ตโ๐ซ๐ตโ๐ซ๐ตโ๐ซ It started snowing and i missed the big one in the hospital, so i HAD to let Lux Outside and wear my balaclava that came behehe๐ฅฐ๐ฅฐ๐ฅฐ๐ฅฐ
I'm trying my hardest to get back to norm, but it's taking longer than I thought lmao starting to reply back to messages! I get dizzy fast looking at a screen so it might take me a day but I can't begin to tell you how i feel with the support and feels of genuine care from you guys here, it so meaningful ๐ฅฒ๐ฅฐ๐ I'll be replying to the priority stuff first like all tips//new subbbsz!!!!
My heart is happy, and most of all as well MY STOMACH IS BETTER! CRAZY shit to tell you guys about that when they did the surgery haha next post ๐คซ๐ซฃ๐คญ
Post shower pics ๐
Pls if you're going out to enjoy new years, pslsplspsls have a shot for me! I'mma be stuck in the hospital ๐ I tried to send out the link to everyone that tipped $13+ for it on my last post๐ฅฐ๐ฅฐ but if I missed you PLEASEEE let me know!
I'm so worn out I'll tell you guys the deets when I'm more with it, but I ended up back in the er again with my pancreas๐๐ the first surgery had complications to where they couldn't drain it fully abd it was seeping out making a mass in my stomach. The most painful shit I've ever experienced. Just radiates thru my back up under my ribs and shit. Idk what the next step is, this hospital is rly bad at keeping me in the loop with anything but I'll update all of you as soon as I know! It might be a gnarly bypass type of surgery and I'm rly scared ๐คง
